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Understanding Disordered Eating: For anyone whose relationship with food feels harder than it should

Understanding Disordered Eating: For anyone whose relationship with food feels harder than it should

By: Rachelle Heinemann
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Your relationship with food is telling you something. This show helps you figure out what. Understanding Disordered Eating is hosted by Rachelle Heinemann, licensed therapist and eating disorder specialist in New Jersey and New York. Each episode explores why we do what we do around food — not to judge it, but to understand it. Because when you understand what your relationship with food is actually doing, everything starts to make sense. For anyone whose relationship with food feels harder than it should. And for the clinicians who sit with them every week. New episodes every Tuesday. Hygiene & Healthy Living Psychology Psychology & Mental Health
Episodes
  • 207. Why You Keep Trying to Change, and It Keeps Not Working

    207. Why You Keep Trying to Change, and It Keeps Not Working
    Jul 7 2026
    In this episode, I'm talking about why so many attempts to change your relationship with food seem to fizzle out, even when you're motivated and genuinely want things to be different. Because constantly starting over doesn't mean you're lazy, uncommitted, or missing some magical piece of information. We're digging into the deeper reasons certain behaviors stick around, what they may actually be doing for you, and why curiosity is often far more helpful than criticism. This conversation goes beyond meal plans and motivation and gets into the questions that most people never think to ask. Quotes "We don't lead with the question, what do we do about this? We lead with the question, what is this actually all about? It's the question that changes everything when someone is really willing to look at it, because the answer is usually not what you think it is." "Most of us are so focused on fixing the behavior that we haven't stopped to ask what the behavior is doing." "The reason change feels so hard isn't because you're weak; it's because something would have to be given up if you changed. Meaning, if the behavior is protective in some way, shape, or form, it's providing something for you." "You don't need to know the answer yet. The key is starting to think about this and removing the blame that we're pointing at ourselves and starting to ask questions." "Sometimes this isn't something that you can do alone, and that's where you might need a real person like a therapist or a dietician. Sometimes we need people who can see the patterns that we're too close to see." Frequently Asked Questions Why do I keep failing when I try to change my eating habits? Repeatedly struggling with food does not necessarily mean you lack motivation or discipline. Many behaviors serve a purpose, and understanding what they are providing can help create lasting change. Why do I sabotage myself around food? What feels like self-sabotage is often a protective pattern. Behaviors around food may be helping you cope with emotions, stress, shame, or fear, even when those behaviors are no longer serving you well. Why is giving up dieting so scary? For many people, dieting feels tied to safety, control, belonging, or fear of weight gain. Letting go of those rules can bring up emotions and beliefs that deserve attention and support. What does fear of weight gain really mean? Fear of weight gain often goes beyond the number on the scale. It can be connected to shame, past experiences, fears of rejection, or beliefs about worth and acceptance. Why do I feel stuck between wanting recovery and wanting to stay the same? Feeling pulled in two directions is called ambivalence, and it is a normal part of recovery. Having conflicting feelings does not mean you're doing anything wrong. Does structured eating help with disordered eating? Structured eating provides consistency and helps create a foundation for healing. Many people benefit from eating regularly throughout the day rather than relying on hunger cues alone in the early stages of recovery. Do I need a therapist or a dietitian for eating disorder recovery? Support can be helpful when you're too close to your own patterns to see them clearly. A therapist or dietitian can help you understand what is driving your behaviors and provide practical tools for recovery. Resources Be sure to sign up for my weekly newsletter! Brave on Purpose! - Grab my new book here! Grab my Journal Prompts Here! Looking for a speaker for an upcoming event? Let's chat! Now accepting new clients! Find out if we're a good fit! Episodes Mentioned: -Episode 45. Basics of Intuitive Eating -Episode 122. Ozempic, Wegovy, & Mounjaro with Laura Cipullo -Episode 133. GLP with Dr. Kim Dennis -Episode 160. Intuitive Eating Updates You Need to Know with Elyse Resch MS, RDN, CEDS-C, Fiaedp, FADA, FAND LEAVE A REVIEW + help someone who may need this podcast by sharing this episode. Be sure to sign up for my weekly newsletter here! You can connect with me on Instagram @rachelleheinemann, through my website www.rachelleheinemann.com, or email me directly at rachelle@rachelleheinemann.com
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    14 mins
  • 206. What Am I Actually Hungry For?

    206. What Am I Actually Hungry For?
    Jun 30 2026
    In this episode, I'm talking about a question that sounds simple but can feel surprisingly hard to answer: What are you actually hungry for? Not in the physical sense, but underneath all of the eating, the urges, the restlessness, and the feeling that something is missing. We're exploring why so many of us learned to disconnect from our wants and needs, how food became the safest and most reliable answer, and why recovery sometimes starts with a question instead of a solution. If you've ever felt like there's something deeper going on but you can't quite name it, this conversation is for you. Grab your coffee, head out on your walk, or hide in your car for a few uninterrupted minutes. Then press play and listen to the full episode. Quotes "When everything else feels kind of murky and vague or far away or impossible to ask for, food is literally right there." "The thing about suppressing any kind of hunger, whether it's literal or metaphoric, is that it doesn't disappear." "You're not eating because you want food, you're eating because you're hungry." "The food happens to be the only thing that you're allowed to answer this particular question of what am I hungry for without negotiating, justifying, or making yourself smaller." "Giving yourself the capacity to have the question and let the question hang out for a little bit is in and of itself what we're talking about." "I think the question of 'What are you hungry for?' is probably the hardest question in this entire work of eating disorder recovery. Mostly because we've spent so long making sure we didn't have to ask it. You do not need the answer yet. You just need to start wondering." Frequently Asked Questions Why do I eat when I'm not hungry? Many people eat for reasons that have nothing to do with physical hunger. Stress, loneliness, exhaustion, boredom, and unmet emotional needs can all contribute to eating when your body does not need food. Emotional eating is often a signal that something deeper is asking for attention. What is emotional hunger? Emotional hunger refers to the desire for comfort, connection, relief, or distraction rather than physical nourishment. Emotional hunger can feel urgent and is often linked to feelings, stress, or unmet needs. Why do I binge eat at night? Nighttime binge eating is common because many people finally slow down at the end of the day. Emotions, stress, loneliness, exhaustion, or restriction that were pushed aside throughout the day often become harder to ignore in the evening. Can emotional eating be a sign of unmet needs? Yes. Emotional eating can sometimes reflect deeper needs such as rest, connection, intimacy, support, purpose, or the desire to feel seen and understood. Food may become the most available way to cope when those needs go unrecognized. How do I know if I'm physically hungry or emotionally hungry? Physical hunger tends to come on gradually and is satisfied by eating. Emotional hunger often feels sudden, urgent, and may persist even after eating. Learning to pause and ask yourself what you are truly needing can help you distinguish between the two. Why do I struggle to know what I want? Many people have spent years prioritizing others, suppressing emotions, or disconnecting from their own needs. Relearning how to identify what you want and need is a skill that develops over time and is an important part of healing. Is emotional eating normal? Yes. Emotional eating is a common human experience. Everyone uses food for comfort at times. Problems arise when food becomes the primary way to cope with emotions or when eating patterns create distress and interfere with daily life. Resources Be sure to sign up for my weekly newsletter! Brave on Purpose! - Grab my new book here! Grab my Journal Prompts Here! Looking for a speaker for an upcoming event? Let's chat! Now accepting new clients! Find out if we're a good fit! Episodes Mentioned: -Episode 73. Food and Desire with Dr. Judith Brisman LEAVE A REVIEW + help someone who may need this podcast by sharing this episode. Be sure to sign up for my weekly newsletter here! You can connect with me on Instagram @rachelleheinemann, through my website www.rachelleheinemann.com, or email me directly at rachelle@rachelleheinemann.com
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    15 mins
  • 205. What Your Eating Disorder is Doing When You Can't Speak Up

    205. What Your Eating Disorder is Doing When You Can't Speak Up
    Jun 23 2026
    When feelings, needs, and wants don't have a place to go, they don't simply disappear. They often find another outlet. For many people, food becomes the place where hurt, anger, disappointment, stress, and resentment get expressed without ever being spoken out loud. In this episode, I'm exploring why disordered eating behaviors can feel so difficult to let go of and why they often provide very real relief in the moment. We'll talk about the emotional and relational layers underneath bingeing, restricting, and food obsession, and why recovery isn't only about changing eating behaviors. Sometimes the missing piece is learning to recognize what's happening emotionally before food enters the picture. If you've ever felt confused by your eating patterns or wondered why you're still struggling despite doing all the "right" things, this episode offers a different lens for understanding what's going on and why food may not be the whole story. Quotes "You didn't decide to stop speaking up for yourself; you adapted, and adaptation is smart." "It's survival. It's resourceful." "When you can't say, 'I'm angry,' that anger does not disappear. When you can't say, 'I'm hurt,' or, 'I need something,' or, 'I want something,' those feelings do not evaporate." "Every single time you route a feeling through food instead of through language, meaning through words, through relationships, through actually telling someone what happened, the original feeling never gets named, it never gets heard, and the need never gets met." "You're trying to answer a question with the wrong answer. The question wasn't about food, and the answer wasn't about food." "Real recovery involves slowly building the capacity to feel something and stay with it long enough to know what it actually is." "The eating disorder isn't necessarily a food problem, or it's really not only a food problem that occasionally gets emotional. It's an emotional and relational problem that found food as its home." Frequently Asked Questions Why do I binge eat after stressful conversations? Many people notice that binge eating happens after conflict, criticism, disappointment, or situations where they suppress their feelings. When emotions aren't acknowledged or expressed, food can become a way to cope with the discomfort. The binge often isn't random. It's frequently connected to something that happened earlier in the day. Can an eating disorder be caused by emotional suppression? Emotional suppression isn't the only cause of an eating disorder, but it can be a significant contributing factor. When someone consistently avoids expressing needs, wants, anger, hurt, or disappointment, eating disorder behaviors may develop as a way to manage or communicate those emotions. Why does restricting food make me want to binge? Restriction is one of the most common drivers of binge eating. When your body isn't getting enough food, it naturally increases the urge to eat. Many people assume their binge eating is purely emotional when physical deprivation is also playing a major role. Is emotional eating the same as binge eating? No. Emotional eating involves using food to cope with emotions, while binge eating typically involves eating a large amount of food with a sense of loss of control. The two can overlap, but they are not the same thing. Why do I struggle to identify my emotions? Many people learn early in life to focus on other people's needs while ignoring their own. Over time, this can make it difficult to recognize emotions, needs, preferences, and boundaries. Learning to identify feelings is often an important part of recovery. Can improving boundaries help with disordered eating? For some people, yes. Difficulties with boundaries, people pleasing, and self-advocacy can contribute to emotional stress that later shows up through food behaviors. While boundaries alone won't resolve an eating disorder, they can be an important part of the healing process. How do I know if my eating habits are connected to my emotions? Start by paying attention to patterns. Notice what happens before urges to binge, restrict, overeat, or obsess about food. Many people discover that certain conversations, situations, or emotional experiences consistently show up before food becomes more difficult to manage. Awareness is often the first step toward understanding what's driving the behavior. Resources Be sure to sign up for my weekly newsletter! Brave on Purpose! - Grab my new book here! Grab my Journal Prompts Here! Looking for a speaker for an upcoming event? Let's chat! Now accepting new clients! Find out if we're a good fit! Episodes Mentioned: -Episode 198. People Pleasing and Eating Disorders -Episode 200. 3 Capacities That Matter More Than Motivation in Eating Disorder Recovery LEAVE A REVIEW + help someone who may need this podcast by sharing this episode. Be sure to sign up for my weekly newsletter here! You can connect with me on Instagram @rachelleheinemann, ...
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    12 mins
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