In this episode of The Observing I, we enter the work of Pema Chödrön, exploring shenpa, groundlessness, tonglen, and the uncomfortable spiritual practice of staying present when everything in us wants to escape.

Rather than treating awakening as a way to rise above pain, Pema points us back into the exact moment we get hooked: the tight chest, the old story, the message we want to send, and the small space where something other than habit can begin.

Much love, David x

In this episode of The Observing I, we enter the work of Stanislav Grof, the Czech-born psychiatrist whose psychedelic research led him to a stranger view of the unconscious: one shaped not only by childhood and memory, but by birth, death, the body, symbols, and non-ordinary states of consciousness. We explore what Grof’s maps of the psyche still offer, where they overreach, and why powerful experiences can feel true even when their meaning remains uncertain.

Much love, David x

Aldous Huxley sat in his study in 1953, watched a vase of flowers become the first thing he had truly seen, and wrote it down. Millions read it. The reducing valve, he called it. The brain filtering out vastness to keep us sane. A beautiful theory. And like most beautiful theories, it has a limit. Huxley could describe the territory. What he couldn't do was enter it.

Laura Archera could. She had spent her life learning how to be in a room with another person without flinching. A violinist whose hand broke. A therapist who sat with veterans who couldn't sleep. A woman who, when the moment came, administered LSD to her dying husband not as an experiment but as an act of accompaniment. Not because she had the right framework. Because she had done the work.

This is the story of the woman who understood something no theory of consciousness has ever accounted for from a safe distance. That the deepest explorations of the mind are not voyages of intellectual discovery. They are acts of vulnerability. And the person who accompanies you matters more than the substance, more than the setting, more than the beautiful idea you brought with you.

Much love, David x