Episodes

  • Ep.75: "Falling in Love with Uncertainty"

    Ep.75: "Falling in Love with Uncertainty"
    Jun 10 2026
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    About Today's Episode:

    In this episode, Mitzi and Jordan open up about the painful reality of leaving their church and the "gut punch" of realizing they could no longer belong to that system and themselves at the same time.

    They discuss the heavy silence that follows walking away, the struggle of deconstructing "Boss Babe Christianity", and the journey of finding a new sense of community through art and shared interests.

    From navigating a stage four cancer diagnosis to learning how to "fall in love with uncertainty", this conversation is a raw look at reclaiming your own life, trusting your intuition, and finally stopping the cycle of "shoulding" yourself.
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    1 hr and 9 mins
  • Ep.74: "Just Enough to Keep You Up at Night"

    Ep.74: "Just Enough to Keep You Up at Night"
    Jun 3 2026
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    About Today's Episode:

    Jordan and Mitzi return to share the exhausting reality of living under the constant surveillance of church leadership, where every personal choice—from the music you listen to, to the "wrong kinds of kids" you attract to your youth group—is subject to an invisible social scorecard.

    They pull back the curtain on the "engineered exhaustion" of a lifestyle that demands you over-spiritualize every tiny aspect of your existence until you are left policing your own thoughts just to stay in line with the mission. The conversation dives deep into the specific pressures of the "pastor’s wife" identity, with Mitzi reflecting on the era when she was expected to be an "over-nurturing" extension of Jordan’s career while her own successful boudoir photography business was viewed as a problem to be defended to the elders.

    Jordan recounts the intellectual and emotional breaking point of trying to maintain a "perfect" ministry image while navigating the trauma of purity culture.

    Jordan and Mitzi describe the profound relief found in walking away from the pressure to be a "little version of God" and choosing instead to live a life that is finally, authentically theirs.
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    1 hr and 4 mins
  • Ep.73: "Your Self-Trust Atrophies"

    Ep.73: "Your Self-Trust Atrophies"
    May 20 2026
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    About Today's Episode:

    Jordan and Mitzi open up about the brutal physical and mental toll of full-time ministry, and what happens when your entire life is graded on an invisible social scorecard. They don't hold back on the reality of that world—from the "Monday migraines" that hit after a weekend of masking as the perfect pastor’s wife, to the exact moment Jordan realized he was burying his own creative dreams to build a version of eternity he doesn't even believe in anymore.

    The conversation digs into the exhausting purity culture politics they grew up with, and a ministry lifestyle that drains you so completely you lose the ability to trust your own instincts. Jordan also looks back on his "debate bro" days at Ozark Christian College, sharing the intellectual breaking point where trying to force rigid, half-truth theology into the real world just stopped working.

    It’s a raw, honest look at what happens when you finally stop policing yourself, drop the pressure to have every answer, and realize how much relief there is in just saying, "I don't know."
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    1 hr and 8 mins
  • Ep.72: "I Researched Cults to Prove I Wasn't in One"

    Ep.72: "I Researched Cults to Prove I Wasn't in One"
    May 13 2026
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    In this episode, Ashleigh & Mattie sit down with Mitzi and Jordan to explore the complex layers of growing up in high-control religious environments. Mitzi shares her journey from a fundamentalist upbringing in Alberta and Missouri—where horror movies were banned but Enya was "safe"—to her current work as a portrait photographer and coach helping others find their authentic selves.

    The conversation dives deep into the psychological toll of "fitting in" to religious roles, discussing how the relief of finally belonging can often mask the reality that the environment is "killing you inside".

    Jordan, an ex-pastor, provides a unique perspective on the "calling to ministry," revealing how it often stems from a genuine desire to be a refuge for others while simultaneously seeking parental and community approval.

    The duo shares both poignant and humorous anecdotes, from the sleep-deprived "Cry Nights" at youth conventions to the absurd moment a youth pastor used The Matrix to warn them about the devil. Together, they navigate the "uncertainty" of life post-cult, offering a raw look at deconstruction, the search for stability, and the spiritual experiences that shaped their path toward authenticity.

    Find Mitzi here: https://www.mitzistarkweather.com/
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    1 hr and 5 mins
  • Ep.71: Coffee, Cheese, and Existential Dread

    Ep.71: Coffee, Cheese, and Existential Dread
    May 6 2026
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    We’re back! After being on break since last Halloween, we’re finally jumping back in to "get our feet wet" and remember how our microphones work.

    In this episode, we catch you up on our seven-month hiatus, from finishing a master’s in counseling to our travels in Paris and the culture shock of returning to the U.S.

    We also have a real conversation about the "felt sense" of navigating high-control patterns in today’s world and share the lifelines keeping us grounded—like baking two dozen baguettes and our new obsession with "thinking putty".
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    44 mins
  • Ep.70: Halloween: Everything is Demons

    Ep.70: Halloween: Everything is Demons
    Oct 29 2025
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    Welcome back for a spooky episode that digs into the absolute dread of our childhood Halloweens!We kick off with teachings warning that a "prowling lion" (Satan) is out to devour us, and that our children must not "identify with the pagan holiday" of trick-or-treating.

    We then reveal the extreme fear culture we were raised in, where everything from an antique ring to a shadow in the yard was proof of demons.The irony is strong as we contrast that paranoia with our current, joyous obsession with spooky season (complete with elaborate costumes and yard decorations!). Hear the deeply personal stories of being taught to "rebuke the demons" in dark rooms as kids.

    Join us for a bizarre, healing, and honest look at how one group taught that, for them, Everything is Demons!
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    1 hr and 8 mins
  • Halloween Teaser: Everything Is Demons

    Halloween Teaser: Everything Is Demons
    Oct 22 2025
    😱 Scary news... but only for a week!

    We’re taking a short break from releasing episodes, but don’t worry — we’ll be back next week with our Halloween special: Everything Is Demons. 👻

    In this one, we’re diving into the fear, superstition, and control that came from being told the world was full of demons — and how that shaped the way we saw everything from movies to music to holidays.
    So stay tuned, and maybe keep a light on… this one gets a little eerie. 🖤

    #TheCultNextDoor #Halloween #EverythingIsDemons #PodcastUpdate #SpiritualAbuse #ReligiousTrauma #CultAwareness
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    2 mins
  • Ep.69: "He Ran Away From Me"

    Ep.69: "He Ran Away From Me"
    Oct 15 2025
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    In this final part of Mindy’s story, the truth finally comes crashing down—and her father literally runs from it. What began as suspicion turns into undeniable proof of a shocking betrayal: her dad, the pastor, pursuing a relationship with his own daughter-in-law just months after her mother’s death.

    From the bizarre family “meeting” meant to confront him, to his financial exploitation of a vulnerable relative, Mindy walks us through the unbelievable events that followed. It’s a story about confronting power, surviving spiritual abuse, and reclaiming your voice when the people who should’ve protected you become the ones you need protection from.

    This one is raw, surreal, and, somehow, still hopeful. #CultNextDoor #Podcast #ExCultMember #CrusadeChurch #TheLoveMove #EndOfTheCult #BreakingFree #SpiritualAbuse #CultSurvivor #ExposingTheTruth #CourageToLeave #CultStories #LifeAfterCult #EscapingControl #TrueStory
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    1 hr and 20 mins