Have you ever wondered if your body is trying to tell you something?

In this solo episode, I share a powerful experience I had during a massage that completely shifted the way I looked at the pain I'd been carrying in my shoulders—and the message my body was trying to communicate.

What began as physical discomfort became a profound lesson in surrendering control and learning to receive.

For years, I've been focused on fixing, improving, healing, and helping. But during this experience, my body revealed two simple words that changed everything:

Let go. Receive.

In this episode, we explore:

• How your body communicates through pain and tension
• The spiritual meaning of surrender versus giving up
• Why so many women struggle to receive
• Letting go of the need to fix yourself and everyone around you
• Control, perfectionism, and trusting divine timing
• Opening your "receiving portal" to love, abundance, guidance, and miracles
• Simple practices to reconnect with your intuition
• A guided meditation to help you release, receive, and expand your energy

If you've been carrying the weight of everyone else's needs...
If you've been trying to control every outcome...
If you're exhausted from always doing...

This episode is your invitation to pause.

To trust.

To soften.

Because sometimes the greatest transformation doesn't come from doing more.

It comes from allowing yourself to receive.

✨ Stay through the end for a guided meditation designed to help you release control, open your heart, and reconnect with the flow of divine timing.

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Disclaimer:This podcast is for educational and informational purposes only. Please use your own discernment and seek professional care when needed.

In this deeply expansive conversation, I sit down with psychologist, breathwork facilitator, and author Dr. Colleen Quinn to explore the powerful connection between breath, the subconscious mind, trauma healing, and the wisdom already living within us.

We dive into topics that challenge conventional ideas about healing and invite us into a more compassionate relationship with ourselves.

We talk about:

• Why the answers you're seeking may already be inside of you
• How conscious breathwork opens the door to the subconscious mind
• The science and spirituality behind healing
• Wounded inner children and the patterns that shape our lives
• Subconscious programming and why 95% of our behaviors happen automatically
• Breathwork as a gentle path to processing trauma
• Ketamine-assisted psychotherapy and psychedelic-assisted healing
• The difference between suppressing emotions and integrating them
• Shame, mother wounds, and revisiting old stories through the eyes of love
• How to remain present when life feels uncertain
• The unconventional love story woven throughout Colleen's book, Essence Merging
• Why love—not fear—is the true healer

One of my favorite reminders from this conversation:

You don't have to force your healing. You only have to become willing to meet yourself with curiosity, breath, and compassion.

If you've been feeling stuck in old patterns, overwhelmed by your thoughts, or disconnected from your intuition, this episode offers a beautiful invitation to slow down, breathe, and remember who you truly are.

✨ DEEP HEALING + INNER CHILD WORK🌿 SPIRITUALITY, SHAME & INTEGRATION❤️ ESSENCE MERGING + FINAL REFLECTIONS

Dr. Colleen Quinn is a mystic, a transpersonal trauma-informed psychologist trained in Internal Family Systems, Somatic Experiencing and Ketamine Assisted Psychotherapy. Certified in breathwork, she uses this practice to guide clients to their own souls where love viscerally brings coherence which is the healing.

In 2018, Colleen had her 2nd near-death experience which was the catalyst for her awakening. Her profoundly raw and intimate transformation is chronicled in her newly released book, Essence Merging, which serves as a primer of what one can expect when giving up the ego’s control over experiences. To learn more or to receive her free download, “9 Simple Steps to Awakening,” visit Colleen’s site www.essencemerging.com. https://a.co/d/09bOvw36

You Tube Link for Steps to Integrative breathwork:

https://youtu.be/HiHkw_9UiVo?si=UDLiyUZCzN-KfI2O

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What if healing isn’t about “fixing” yourself… but learning how to live in alignment with your body, energy, and spirit?

In this deeply expansive conversation, I sit down with Ayurvedic practitioner, yoga teacher, and spiritual guide Guru Karam (Laura Benton) to explore the ancient wisdom of Ayurveda, meditation, subconscious healing, karma, nervous system regulation, and what it really means to create a grounded life in a chaotic world.

This episode goes far beyond wellness trends.

We talk about:

• The three doshas in Ayurveda (Vata, Pitta & Kapha)
• Why modern life is creating nervous system overload
• How food, habits, and daily rituals affect your energy
• Meditation, subconscious programming, and witness consciousness
• Karma, forgiveness, and emotional healing
• The importance of grounding through the body and nature
• Why resistance and self-sabotage happen when we try to change
• Hypnosis, past lives, rebirthing, and spiritual awareness
• Creating sustainable healing through small daily practices

One of the most powerful reminders in this conversation:

Your body is constantly communicating with you.
Most of us were just never taught how to listen.

This episode is for the person who:
Feels overwhelmed by the noise of modern life
Knows there’s a deeper connection between mind, body, and spirit
Wants healing that feels grounded, practical, and spiritually aligned
Is ready to stop abandoning themselves and start creating supportive daily rituals

And maybe most importantly…

We talk about how transformation doesn’t happen through perfection.
It happens through consistent, loving awareness.

✨ If you’ve been craving deeper peace, clarity, grounding, and connection with yourself, this conversation will meet you exactly where you are.

Laura Benton (Guru Karam) MSN, RN

Laura began studying yoga at 16 years old in Houston Texas. In

1998, she and her husband Mehtab Benton founded Yoga Yoga studio in Austin TX, which grew into a business with 5 yoga studios and a spa. In 2015 they sold the business. Laura has been a yoga teacher and teacher trainer for over 30 years and continues to teach yoga and sound healing with the gong online with her husband Mehtab. She is trained in Ayurveda and hypnosis and past life regression. At the age of 50, she dec ide to pursue nursing and received her MSN and certification as an advanced practice nurse in 2015. After working as a provider in pain management, she decided to take a more holistic approach to healing . She started Self Health Care Nurse as a way to help people directly via health coaching using the tools of Ayurveda and hypnosis. She and Mehtab moved to Little Rock, Arkansas in 2024 and enjoy gardening and nature in the Natural state.

Work with Guru Karam and Mehtab:

http://www.selfhealthcarenurse.com

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Disclaimer:This podcast is for educational and informational purposes only. Please use your own discernment and seek professional care when needed.